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[Dec. 10th, 2003|01:36 pm] |
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long time no update guess im not doing the greatest moms in the hospital i had to call 911 at 1 am yesterday morning and was with her at the hospital till 745 am and then dad came (he just got surgery so he isnt good) moms still in the hospital so im kinda Ehh.........Stayedhome yest and got the sisters chinese decorated the xmas tree..
I made interclass plays unless nachowitz does cut two girls but the way he was talking i dont think ill get cut cuz he was talking to sam boudreau and megg-o desjardin and told them i had alot of talent and he wanted me to get the part i wanted in the play (basically the part is Rizzo from grease only the play is at the drive ins and the part i want is this girl whos sexually confident on a date with the nervous wreck of a guy and hes tryin to screw her but too nervous and shes making hints like dont be nervous i wanna and in the end the just start mackin and they leave it at that suggesting that when lights go out thier doin it its such a funny part...cuz i dont think id do good with the Jan brady like part i think Carli will get that one she did rlly good for it) I made Varsity Cheerleading for Hockey lol and i only showed up one of the 3 days we were supposed to go tech 1 of 4 but one was canceled due to snow and Mr.Yound waivered the cheer and sneaker fees for me ($55 fee, $50 sneakers,$20 undershirt) since he heard moms in the hospital and dads off work for 3 weeks from surgery so i dont have to pay thats great......... |
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[Dec. 5th, 2003|08:40 am] |
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Have you ever thought you were over something but then realized you havent gotten over it yeaaaa....sucks dont it..........i dunno im lost in life but its fun cuz i got sum ppl with me hahah....
Matts coming down from Rd/Isl saturday to chill ummm happy birthday to me sick 17 yesterday and ummmm dads surgery today hopefully shyt goes good uhhhh ummm yea bye ; (
"I shed a tear for you ,then shed some more,tears multiplying more and more i take this knife and bleed my aching heart look at me as my world falls apart" |
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[Nov. 4th, 2003|09:51 pm] |
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To All the people in fitchburg making fuss over Caleb
<b><font=32>GET OVER IT </b></font=32>
Its my life not urs so leave me alone........... |
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[Nov. 1st, 2003|08:35 pm] |
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[Oct. 20th, 2003|10:46 am] |
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| :ThE AuTumN LeaVeS FaLl As DoEs My HeArT: |
[Oct. 15th, 2003|08:26 am] |
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sunday where did i leave of oh yes damons place-
Went to damons and watched cartoons saw the best episode of dexters lab lmao it was all madark and hes like :Hahahahahaha and doing all these actions and sounding em out and at the end he goes to defeat dexter and dexter is leaving and hes like :Wahwahwahwahwahwah bell rung more later
::The more cuz its later Update::
Well that night me and dan cuddled and cupcakez and chilled and shyt.....
Monday-Got up cleaned put on mah school gurl fit and walked to damons chilled and shyt then went to taco bell and tiffany manuels and then went to damons and watched that kangaroo jack movie with devoney his lil sistah and then me and damon got into a bigfight(i left crying) and then devoney and danny followed me and we chilled went to mini mart and shyt.....Ummmm.....Went to my house and then damons dad came over and shyt and chased him and beat the shyt outta him i was mad scared and shyt like woah and so dan called me later and turns out damon is in burbank at the mental hospital!!: (
Tues-Not much happen today ummmmm.....wow nothing went online and did nada
Wed-Got out of school at 1 cleaned the crib and listened to WaaF and smoked a few cigggs and walked the dog and then called into waaf to request some songs i was on air : )
Talked to the gorgoues <3 Dave Garde <3 (singer of Guilty by association who gave me his #) and then went out with allen and picked up hienly and cashed my check and smoked some bud and then brought danny h home and then went to beccas and chilled then picked up angela trombley and jess cormier and lee and went to my house and mcdonalds (lol me and jess ran and slid down the slide and got in trouble) dropped becca off at home and went to hannafords and jess stole some rasberry vodka and jack daniels and we drank (me and jess got drunk) and we picked up eric and beth to get bud and stole pumpkins from Marshall farms and then drove around went to campus pizza uh oh i puked on allens car lol.......
drove around had fun came home and talked to danny and chris niles and this hot punk tj lol.......but im out for now more later buh bye |
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[Oct. 13th, 2003|11:48 am] |
hey im back again its been a few days so heres the 411:
Sat-OMG dad got us the cutest fucking puppy ever its 1/2 american eskimo and 1/2 papillion and its so damn cute...i named him Tobias or toby for short......hes so cute
Sun-no work : )
chilled with damon and danny all day and went to the mall and shyt and marchettis and went out to eat like 5 times lol uhh chilled with tiff m and shyt crashed her family party lol.........well going to damons im out buh bye more later |
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[Oct. 13th, 2003|10:08 am] |
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public.
What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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| ParTaaY time....... |
[Oct. 10th, 2003|10:44 pm] |
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ok so yesterday damon picked me up and we went to marchettis she was outta the hospital for the day chilled there met damons older bro ricky hes a perv too they kept looking up my skirt......PIGZ....went to lexis grave (GOD REST HER SOUL)palmerie was there...
Chilled some more and went home....talked to kenan on the phone......talked to dan online and then on the phone....woke up in the am today and cleaned till 1230 talked to dan on the phone then damon appears at my house get dressed were going to get danny so im like alright so i get ret call mom and we stop at dunkin that fucking 35 yr old guy taz keeps bothering me for a date im like dude im 16 !!!so i get my iced and some munchkins and bounce and then we get danny boi and i met his mom and go to marchettis to see palmerie
chilled awhile watched pulp fiction.....went back to my house chilled and then went and tryed to steal chrises old car lol.....umm then we went to damons and got power tools stopped at dunkin and oh 35 yr old is still there....So i go in to get my coffee only to have that uber fuckhole Bev bytchen at me cuz i guess i was supposed to work 3-6 im like no one told me so they can fuck off.......then tabby comes and bytches em out haha...
so im scared cause that 35 y/o is eyein me and so i walk out and dan my sweetheart puts his arm around me right when we walk out and damon and chris walk out taz juz looks and then he looks like hes bout to say suttin and he just shuts....then were driving to leave and hes staring at me like wikid scary so danny boi kisses me and were just goin at it and the guy looks away and were laughin our asses off.....so we pick up damons sister devonee and go to the dance and at first im the only one dancing the tanya and nicole saltmarsh and karina start dancing and then i taught kelly l to dance and dean and then im told to go outside and dude ALLEN was there and hes BACK :)
So as the dance progresses i dance with orlando and then allen and then kelly and tanya and then i spot tj the kid from loco who i moshed with i knew him from margo n allen
and taught him how to dance had the kid good ass at it by the end of the night and then me and him dirty danced alot and then friggen damon comes up to me ohh u pissed danny of u bytch fucking dancing with all these guys like a ho while he sits there u fucking dirty bytch u walking home and so i screamed at him till i was crying and then ran in the bathroom and devonee and kelly came in and helped me and then i guess damon was in the outside like im wikid srry i didnt mean that i gnored him and layed down and they played my song i requested Nelly-hot in her'
so i started dancin again and damons like oh why u being a whore da da da and im like fuck you and danced with tj again and then i talked to danny and he said he never said he was madd at all he was in the car cause it wasnt his thing and then we chilled and i dance some more i gave tj a lap dance lol and danced with dean then they finally played Dream ft loon-Krazy like i requested and me and tj got mad krazy dirty dancing he like lifted me up and i had my legs round his waist and this rican boi told me i danced wiked good and im like sweet but me and tj got mad into it (he popped one lol i was like oh man sumones happy) but he was so banging and his six pack yummmm.........but like it was funn and then we left at 10:15 cuz i was suppose to be home for 10 and the po'z came and shyt so here i am now chillen (Got tj's digitz ; P ) lol waiting for my danny to come on bored and tired and danced out talking to april bout how fuct that guy taz is and gabriel bout random shyt...talked to niles a few min ago and kenan i <3 that kiddo shyt but wikid tired and shyt so im out im so happy allens back and cant wait for tj to call me and kenan on monday and shyt but buh bye <3 ya all |
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| Happy Birthday to You........ |
[Oct. 9th, 2003|09:51 am] |
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lomg time no update been a crazy but cool week
MON:Chilled qith Brookzie(ManderZ) afta school she needed help cuz that asshole reggie killed the baby (she was 4 1/2 mon preggers and he had sum gurls jump her)So i have lost another life in 1 mon and this was gonna be my godchild.
Tues-FILM CLUB WOOHOO.....Ross is so hot man oh man lol robs kinda cute too but i like ross more and then this qt chris niles and me were talking for awhile he gave me his sn but yea lol.....talked to kenan 930 pm-1 am hes my angel im gonna marry that kid hes so sweet i love him
Wed-
FUN DAY!!!!!!!! Ok after school dom gave me and kimmee a ride to the mall(dropped of john perla first he was looking cute) (KRAZY ASS DRIVER) and were 1/2 way there and kimz mom was on the phone and said she had to come home and clean so we go back clean get an iced coffee and dom picks us up more krazy driving and we pick up manderz at lhs and we get gas and go to the mall who do i see *Ross* & Rob......So were doing a combo of job hunting,Duck hunting(guyz=duckz),and shopping and i see this fine ass kid ina red independant shirt and shyt so i get gutsy and scream hey kid in red shirt ur hott as fuck,
then im thinking well look how good that paid off cuz he walked out the door and smoked a cigg wit his pal so we go to Panera Bread (i had gift certificates) and all got sandwishes it was nice in there we felt like scungyz cuz we looked ghetto.....So fro mthere we were playing on the kiddy rides cuz we are bored and look at some clothes and run into tabby and her mom......we go outside to smoke a cigg and notice the red shirt boy and hes leaving so were sad but then we notice him go into the side door...kim goes inside and woah not even 15 secs later she comes back with the kid im like WTF , bytch lol.....and shes like u guys this is DAVE im like u know kims jailbait for you shes only turning 15 and hes like what im like im gonna be 17 hes like ur cute im like werd lol and so were chillen i run in and buy the shyt i was there for then lol bad us hope into his friends car for a ride round 5(me ,manderz,n,kimm) and smoke some weed and shyt they dropped me off at youth group at 630 and then i chilled ther i might be going to Mexico with y.g mom and dad want me to go!!!!
Today R.I.P Alexis-Happy 16Th BIRTHDAY......ehh damon is suppose to pick me up later thaz all for now |
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| LOCOBAZOOKA-The Aftermath................ |
[Oct. 5th, 2003|06:18 pm] |
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Long time no update ehh lets start with the glorius fucking locobazooka.....Ok 5 am wake up get dressed and ret and glorious and lay my ass down on grams couch bed and look thru my pre-loco shyt.......so 630 am Kenan and Bobby get to the house and we chill while steff gets ret and then call kimm so were out by 645 and at dunkin donuts and kim met us we got sum shyt to go and bounced got there by 730 line was pretty big i got mad free shyt just in line met up with slauenwhite and my nessa......
So Basically i cant even describe how great of a time i had tunz of free shyt was given to me from the bands got some great pictures and lots of autographs....Uhhh went behind stage with shinedown and smile empty soul : )
Got pictures of me with them and werd shinedown brent gave me a bottle of pack of ciggs and a beer and goes come party i was so happy and then he gave me water cuz i had been in the pitts but i got a pic of me with the gorgoues derek fledhill of smile empty soul and hes got his hand on me and the rest of the band is there and me sitting with shinedown im sittin on the lap lol and werd I went on stage with PM5K and grabbed spiders ass and he gave me his mardi gras beads....ROCK ASS...uhhhhh danny L touched my boobs when i crowd surfdid that lil whore lol although he didnt realize till after it was me......uhhhh wow met so many cool ppl there and at the pre*-show..uhh got my shyt stole but got most of it back and got a smile empty soul cd autographed : )
Ohhh man so much good stuff happed chilled with metal militia i love Joe let this be known haha i loved alot of the band ppl:
Metal Militia-JOE & paolo
Cherry S/T-Bowza & Dan
PM5K-SPIDER
Smile Empty Soul-Derek Fledhill & Sean Danielson
Guilty By Association-DAVE
etc..................
Werd tho i had so much fucking fun!!!! Went on ride "GRAVITRON" with dan pierce and it was awesome and then went on some cool twirl around ride with anthony corda........Uhhh found kenan at the end we walked ta steffz car and she was there and then kenan went and looked for bobby and renee and we talkeed and listened to music and chilled for 2 hrs while waiting for traffic to bump out uhhhh lol made out with kenan and shyt....renee got jealous like whoa.......fell asleep with my head on kenans lap and my arms around his waist....IT ALL ROCKED all the black and bluez inc the ones under my eye are worth it.........week was cool chilled with some ppl i made pals with like bryan charron and nick ???? ,and leandra and sum pplz who name i 4got uhh thurs service auction was fun poked smot with john lynch and renee it went good got my fish named it Vixen its a pretty fishy lol...
Fri babysatt and kim came over awhile......Sat-work then damon picked me up and we went to clinton to pick up dan for his bday we got back to my house after chillen at dans for an hour and then its pouring and the keys get locked in the car and my genious and jesses coordination got em out then went to the mall and bought dan (n myself) the green book umm chilled and brought dan home and then i gavehim a goodnight smootch and then me and damon drove home and got ciggz from slauenwhite and went to marchettis to see palmieri and then i went home.....more later
<3 Vanessa |
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[Sep. 27th, 2003|10:16 pm] |
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omg omg omg omg omg omg fun fun fun fun fun fun fun the convo tells all 4 now:
hershysmooches39 [10:01 PM]: hey
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:01 PM]: :-D
hershysmooches39 [10:02 PM]: i take it you saw kenan today?
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:02 PM]: all day
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:02 PM]: his dad just brought me to my gramms
hershysmooches39 [10:03 PM]: awesome!
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:03 PM]: dude omg
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:03 PM]: today omg
hershysmooches39 [10:03 PM]: what what?
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:05 PM]: omg i went into a mosh pit all day "today was just the preshow
i got tonz of autographs and a band memeber gave me his #
i have a black eye but its all good and while iwas moshing
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:05 PM]: the people in spineshank they stop and go does this gurl kik ass or wut and everyone lifted me up and screamed
and the guitarist came down and gave me his pick
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:05 PM]:
i cant wait 4 2mara i got to go back area and chill with the bands
cuz they thought i was awesome for moshing and being one of the few chix in thier
n oldest
hershysmooches39 [10:06 PM]: omg that fuckin rocks
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:10 PM]: yea
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:10 PM]: kenan got kiked in the face lol
hershysmooches39 [10:10 PM]: omg
hershysmooches39 [10:10 PM]: that sux
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:11 PM]: yea i got socked in the eye 3x and passed out in the middle of the pit for .4 secs
hershysmooches39 [10:11 PM]: holy shit
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:12 PM]: :-D
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:12 PM]: i have a big old black eye
hershysmooches39 [10:12 PM]: least u had an awesome time
hershysmooches39 [10:12 PM]: lol
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:12 PM]: yea i cant wait for the real thing
hershysmooches39 [10:14 PM]: thats so awesome that you got a number
hershysmooches39 [10:14 PM]: that fuckin rules man
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:14 PM]: yea
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:14 PM]: he was bangin too
hershysmooches39 [10:15 PM]: even better!!
hershysmooches39 [10:15 PM]: im so jealous
hershysmooches39 [10:15 PM]: lol
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:15 PM]: i could be chillen with the bands now but i had to be at my grams by 10
hershysmooches39 [10:15 PM]: that blows ass
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:16 PM]: yea but its all good
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:16 PM]: i may get to chill 2marra cuz of that kid whos in the band and gave me his #
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:16 PM]: :-)
hershysmooches39 [10:17 PM]: bring a camera..take pics
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:17 PM]: it was great me kenan my pal kim and this gurl renee and this guy bobby and damon p and his cousin and omg so many cool ppl i talked to but didnt know ohhhh my god it rocked like a mo fugger lol
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:17 PM]: i went crazy in an all guys mosh pit
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:17 PM]: it was so great i went to get water and everyone was like dude u rock
hershysmooches39 [10:18 PM]: im friends with renee!!
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:18 PM]: omg she awesome
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:18 PM]: she msohed with me
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:18 PM]: kiked so much ass
hershysmooches39 [10:18 PM]: i know she fuckin rocks
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:18 PM]: **moshed
hershysmooches39 [10:19 PM]: i never moshed before...
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:19 PM]: oh it was my first time
hershysmooches39 [10:19 PM]: i want to really badly
XXFaLLinGStaRr [10:21 PM]: my day rocked spineshank guitar pick 'Guilty by associateion singers # n autograph and guitarist pick mad autographed pictures 2 extra loco tix from the guy in straightjacket beard so kimm could come since i rocked in the pits ($10 for 2 that should be $80) and the guy from lost braclet and another band braclet ohhh man so much............. |
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| Times slowly passes me by........... |
[Sep. 25th, 2003|08:29 am] |
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Ok long time no update so heres whats been going on since last entry :
Saturday- Volunteered at the J.A.Fest and chilled wit mah homie gurl Amanda Brooks (ManderZ),Dave Surely, Greg Goodwin, Cousin Brianna and Premo….Premo got hurt on a maze thing and had to go ter the hospitable ::SaDnEss: Uhhhh Alex had a Birthday party so I had shane and black come over and we hung out and later on got pizza and chicken from Papa Johns…..
Sunday-Worked from 6 am till 12 pm and then went to Evies Baby shower for Leaanne and chilled with Sheena and crap stayed till 8:30 smoked almost a pack of ciggs that day everyone was smoking on the porch and shyt I finally saw Baby Whipple hehe lil Savannah Jade Whipple shes so damn precious……saw baby Riley tinas son hes so cute too and baby faiyth….man it was hard to get anywhere cuz of the parade lol me sheena alisha and leaanne went to dunkin and a 3 min drive took about 15 well mom n alisha left at like 3 but I stayed and everyone left around like 630 then we helped evie clean up and then sat on the porch with Pam and Sheena and chilled and smoked a but….Jenn (sheenas mom) drove me home and then I danced fo’awhile and chilled
Later that night danny o came over and we chilled hehe and he left at like 3 I think am that is……
Mon-Chilled and shyt hung out in Ms.Currys room most of the day Drivers ed after school
Tues-Chilled and went to Film Club im the first gurl to ever join woohooo its made cool there wikid nice ppl and I talked to El film club presidente Ross Mcdonald(total babe) for like 3 hrs after online I also talked to Brian Seymour(Fucking Bangin kid hes hella hott) for awhile
Wed-Chilled in Currys room most of the day again got kicked out of class 5th period for fucking putting on chapstick by that Dike Cunt licker Mrs.Sundstrom grrr I hate her and no wuts funny ohh I didn’t even get in trouble I went and hung out in Currys hahaha, 6th period got out 30 min early cuz I was with Ms.Curry(That women is a Savior) lol and mom took me to mini market and I got slushie and hot frys and the awesome guy there (Damons pal) gave me a free slushie coupon and a discounted slushie I love that babe he always hooks it up he gives damon ciggs underage maybe he will for me too………Yea at like 6:30 Brian Seymour came over and shyt yea hes cool wikid hott.....
Thurs-TODAY………So far nada here just in comp apps 2 being bored uhh makeup class for drivers ed today fun fun I have to miss the coffee house ::CrieS:: cuz I have to go get April and Bobbys loco tick along with katies from uncle Kevin and shyt………. |
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| Snapping Back to Reality................. |
[Sep. 19th, 2003|10:27 am] |
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Hello~
Its been a crazy week………Well last time I left off I believe was just alexis dying and stuff
Well tues went to school spent the whole day with ms.curry and a group of ppl and we went to her room then the conference room and then her room then the media room…..Me and paula made books for alexis and shyt they came out good and then after school me and sean brought Christine home and then went to mcdonalds and then to dans for awhile and then sean brought me to grammies and I went and chilled awhile and then drove to hunnie farms got lexus a thing of 3 roses and and got dropped off at dannielles and then we listened to “The Wraith” and brittney came over and we waited for cassie and the van which was an hour late grrrrr
And then we were trying to find the funeral home and couldn’t we were all smoking ciggs in the car and I was talking to mike nutter and andy Cochran and chillen and they gave me mcdonalds soda and then we finally got there and like it was so sadd and there were so many ppl like the rd was blocked off at the end and I was crying so bad and when I went inside I flipped and had to run out and threwup all over the side walk and it was horrid ………there was this gurl angela (this gurl from Fitchburg) who I was sitting talking to she gave me a hug and shyt and we were crying together and like ahhhh corey n was there it made my heart fall to the floor and I was talking to chris who I found out wasn’t jays cousin !!
But everyone was there poor angela Guzman was bawling her eyes out and like Chelsea was flipping and shyt well after we all got into the van and were on our way to the church it was packed in the van (me,chrisevans,dannielle colton,brittney desmaris,kim amons,nick vodiesh,josh vautor,cassie hulecki,andy cochran,mike nutter,shuan hart,Kelly lameroux,Chelsea ducharme,)
(on the way to the wake it was the same ppl only minus Kelly,chelse,nick,&kim)
but we all were more calmed on the ride and nick was his usual goofy self…hes all like looking at chris like touch mah hand and make mental retarded voice lol….
So we get to the church and like it so small and full and ppl are around in a circle and im crying and I see corey made me dropp and finally I knew I was gonna flip so I ran out and ran down the stairs and around the corner and dropped and fell to the floor and was shaking and crying and then sam boudreau,megan desjardin,Amanda brooks,and candy gurley came running over with cramer and helped me settle down so I went up and light a candle and saw corey so I ran down stairs crying still and nate fontain gave me a hug and held me till I calmed and then I got brought home
Wed funeral woke up at 7 am drove alex to southeast on the way I saw becca and danny h and we picked em up and stopped at dunkin donuts and got shyt and then we drove them to damons and I got ret and I drove and picked up john lynch and nessa bosley and we met at kmart like curry said and the church was too full for us to fit so we went into cogshall park for a few hrs and then mom had an appt so I had to go home and then chilled and went to drivers ed and Julio came in for my project and I got home a billy underhill came over and then yest april picked me up yesterday after school and we went to dunkin and then drove to fitch to pick up bobby and chilled there and went to this gurl kaitys house(she was with us when april got me she gave me madd ciggss : D ) and we smoke a nice fat blunt…..it was good then I went home and chilled online and then kenan called me I fucking love that kid hes so sweet we talked like an hour and a half but I have to go the bells gonna ring ok so more later
I love you all ppl I swear <3 Vanessa |
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[Sep. 14th, 2003|11:55 pm] |
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im so upset i cant sleep man i feel like shyt i talked to kenan for awhile so that helped a bit i friggen love that kid he always halps me out........oh wow i feel so odd i didnt feel like talking to anyone so i did some quizes
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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The Merciless Child
What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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You're meant for year(s) 1700-1890.
You find beauty in the frills and twists of this
period, where society was based on grace and
nobility. You might also find a sort of
romaticism in it, and it's dark under-belly,
pertaining to the many family feuds and
arranged marriages, as well as the very HIGH
suicide rate of women.
Which Era Do You Belong In?
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Aphrodite/Eros
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Alicia Silverstone
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and spur of the moment.
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which stereotype are you?
somewhere i belong- you are lost and clanless you
need some where to be where you dont have to
worry about how you look or act be your self!!
what linkin park song are you?
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Instrumental: The voice in your heart sings without
words. Your song is the truest, most primal
reflection of who you are and how you feel; it
doesn't use cheap qualifiers to try and express
itself, but lets people know directly exactly
what you mean. This directness can lead to
confusion-- without a common language, any
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people-- but it can also prevent confusion when
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your audience.
What beautiful voice sings in your heart?
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Your a GOOF! haha.. very different and unique..
kinda flirty at times.. and tend to get your
way whenever you please. You have a awsome
personality and are a very people-friendly
person ;D go you!
What emotion are you?
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"Roses are Red, Deep and true. These True
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You're a bearer of romantic love, respect,
courage, passion, and reveals unconscious
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| I can feel my world suddenly start to crumble.......... |
[Sep. 14th, 2003|03:44 pm] |
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| [ | music |
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Last night had to have been one of the worst nights of my life.As most people know alexis died friday night and i found out saturday morning , becca came over to grieve with me i didnt wanna be alone,she was supposed to sleep over too.Well basically we were in denial so to try and make it out of our heads we went to the airfest.....like i was so depressed and stupid that right before it i took speed for the first time ever...We got there and tunz of people were there and at first i was hyper and happy and felt so great i saw danny hienly and he came and chilled with us the whole time dan g,and jay, and jays cute cousin chris were all there and sarah cormier and kelly s and steve from youth group and seth cousin davids pal and my ex bf nick from 5th grade and nick g and vanessa b and premo and andy barret and unfortunatley corey n.
There were so many people and i was having a blast and then i threw up and this old lady yelled at me and the guy at the booth working yelled at her and shyt and ryan litalien gave me $2.00 for puking pink and i was checking out guys and saw this hott ass kid and looked at him and he looked back so i made becca and danny follow him with me and im like hey your hott do i know you cause he looked familiar and he started laughin he's like yes you do and im like ok from where and hes like andy so of course i think he means andy b and so im like whats ur name baby and i thought he was bobby at first and im like omg im so sorry bobby and hes like im not bobby and finally hes like does the name kenny ring a bell im like AHHHHH OMG it was kenny gurge the kid who i patyed with all of 8th grade summer lol and i was like omg becca i kissed this kid before and like did shyt with him i felt so dumb .....but then me and danny took a walk away from everyone else around 7:30 and when we came back and i guess some one had given becca "e" and she was flipping and was saying she was gonna commit suicide so that is when i broke into tears over alexis and becca and everything in life corey being an asshole and jay not liking me and people laughing at me.......i talked to Kelly Lamoruex and Dean and they said theyd bring us home since we were stranded and i told them i had to be home for 10 so they said ok and i went on a mission to find black coffee for becca and when i couldnt find any i came back only to have jess loewes fat ass screaming at me blaming me when i wasnt even there when it happened so i ran off in tears and couldnt see without my glasses in the dark and at one point i was so weak and disorted that i was holdin on to Vanessa to keep from passing out and her and jay had to pick me up cause i was on the ground and then i found out becca got taken to the hospital........eventually i ran into donald and jay man oh man did shyt fly thru my head me and donald are cool now so we were talking and i talked to jay too im proud of him he quite smoking and shyt and donald was like im still an alchoholic and we talked and it was wierd the one thought that ran thru my head was "I'D DO ANYTHING TO HAVE HIM BACK" i still have my dinald box and everything and i miss the days were him and jay would come over and chill and we'd all be happy and shyt i didnt tell him but i had henry in my pocket when i talked to him but god i missed him so much i just wanted to run and pour my feelings out to hi to cry on him like i used to when things went wrong and if i can say ANYTHING about him it would be that i will always love him and i never stopped loving him since that day we broke up last year i never rlly had a happy relationship since i told myself i did but i was lying to myself so badly..........well after talking to him i felt better till someone came up to me omg ur friend shot herself i heard and i freaked and so i walked around bein depressed ryan won me a stuffed dog its pink and i tryed to play a game to cheer me up i lost and i cryed more and the lady asked what was wrong cause she saw me crying for like and hour and i spilled everything bout lexis and then becca saying she was gonna kill herself(leaving out the "e" part ) and she gave me a tweety doll and this other lady gave me a carebear doll a big one............
but i walked around still crying and sarah cormier came up to me and talked to me and helped me a bit i thought she like hated me but her doing that gave me much respect for her specially since brian marlow the whole time was like come on lets go.....so finally i found kelly and dean and we were gonna watch the fireworks then go so were watching em and the crowds leaving and i get lost in the crowd i can barely see and shyt and i started flipping and having a break down and i ran into jenn banghart and she tryed helping me her and premo and then they had to leave and so i was walking around flipping and talked to jay and sarah parrey and jays like i swear i would give you a ride home but my mom wouldnt lemme so im like its ok its ok and they had to leave so i walked around looking dfor someone anyone and angel quinones saw me and came up to me and gave me a hug and is like whats wrong and im like bawling and telling him and then chris clark gave me a hug and asked what was wrong and soon walter galo and bobby came up and were all giving me hugs and talking to me bout what was wrong and shyt and candy gurley so like walters like man i feel so bad for this gurl so he talked to his pal and asked him to give me a ride cause it was 10 min to 11 and i was alret and hour late (i had called mom and cassies cell and told her we were gonna see becca at the hospital but i told her we'd only be 20 min) but they gave me a ride and thank god for that i got home around 11:30 and told mom that i felt horrible and shyt and shes like its ok becca called call her house so i ran and called her and we talked i talked to margo for like 3 min and went online and talked to dan g and jay and jackie a and got an email from dan mcgowan this cool kid who looks like kenan......hes got beautiful blue eyes like kenan too......
and i got off jesse n was over and cody and they slept over and i woke up feeling like shyt so i didnt go to work and i woke up at 1235 cause becca came over to get her stuff and damen(alexis bf) was in the car so i went and talked to him and cryed and becca cryed and damens eyes welled up,i go inside to find out alisha my sister was in the hospital cause she had a panic atttack and so i flipped and dads home now being an asshole cause i came inside crying hes like fucking get over it life goes on and i got so pissed and hes like hey now ur pals going to hell im like shut up shut up shut up and then alisha finally gets home and my moms like you want food to him hes like i cant even think of food when this fucking house is a mess like this fucking slobs i got pissed and so now im here typing this but its really a tragic night and day i just know from now on i will value life so much and never say i wanna die and i hate myself again................ |
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[Sep. 13th, 2003|12:31 pm] |
i dont know what to do Alexis Wilson one of my pals commited suicide i just found out i dont know what do omg and damon her bf of 3 yrs oh man im so lost i dont know what to do i cant stop crying im so lost god why............
R.I.P Alexis i love you forever |
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[Sep. 12th, 2003|11:31 pm] |
Greetings vanessa --
Here is your horoscope for Friday, September 12:
True love transcends all the needs attached to it. Shine brightly on a world that's ready to reflect your light back at you. All of a sudden, it's playtime wherever you are. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2003|08:26 am] |
Ok so my past few days have been un-good coreys spreading so much lies about me around the school I dunno what his prob is he used to be such a nice guy and shyt man but like hes telling people we never did nuttin and that im saying that to break him and joy up cuz I want him and he barely knows me yea if I barely know him why would I be trying to break em up der and he told dan gorski about it and dan told people that I wasn’t lieing corey is man I love that kid cuz if it weren’t for him Vanessa Bosley would hate me cause shes pals with corey too and believed his side for some reason but then Dan, Sean D ,Christine ,heck even Mark S said I wasn’t lying so she believes me now and like I walked down the hall wed and corey was there he gave me the dirtiest look ever I was like ouch……….yea so yest 4 drivers ed afta school I jumped in Seans car and we sped to D.D and donna didn’t even fuckin give em my order so sheena lemme go behind and make it and I got ½ dozen for everyone in the car and some code reds for everyone cause it was sean dan Christine and Kelly,then we sped back to the school, oofki brought in pizza for hump day(lol don’t ask my teacher made it up meaning were ½ way over the hump of drivers ed) he friggen rocks lol but yea ………………
And he burnt me a copy of the new mudvayne cd its weird in the 3 years ive known oofki I just thought of him as OoFki just a cool funny skater boi lol and I looked at him yest and I was kinda like hey OoFkis a qt hehe ……and my pal tudor ive know for woah how long like 4 ½ years hes getting so cute hes got the shaggy hair going on and the skating hehe im like tudor whend u become such a pretty boi lol hes like ima pretty boi im like uh huh hes like okay lol but yea OoFki and me decided were gonna be driving partners dude mikey picked me up off the rock I was smoking a butt on and I told him to and he dropped me my nose ring almost came out and my left elbow got scrapped up I beat the shyt outta him for it lol……….
Yea so been driving to school and home cause moms been cool yay hehe….
Oh I almost forgot wed I went to youth group and theres this cool and cute emoish boy who I talked to sometimes (usually just sit behind him and look at him) but his names ricky and like we watched movie in Y.G and everyone was sitting with their ppl and none of myne was there cept my sis alex and her jesse but they had snuck off again so me and ricky sat together and chrisitine (not seans Christine) came and sat with us after awhile and like me and him swapped sns to talk later and we were talking that night and sadly enuf I found out hes 20 but that’s only a 3 yr diff so w/e but g 2 go bells gonna ring |
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| A Day of Fun for me............ |
[Sep. 9th, 2003|09:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | clicking on keyboards.......................... | ] |
ok so in the am brought donuts for the peeps and were eating them and decided we didnt wanna go to school so we left sawe jay when were where leaving but he couldnt leave cause of football and then we hoped in seans car just me and christine and we to the parkin lot of the movies and chilled a 1/2 hr and then went to brians(the kid from friday) and chilled there watched Mr.Deeds and shorty(jimmy hall)and me talked while i smoked a cigg and we hung out and listened to music then we left to mcdonalds and got "Brunch" i just had a hashbrown lol and then we went to seans we were gonna go to dans cause he was home sick but his mom was home too.........
So then we chilled at seans like 10 min and then went back to brians and watched PhoneBooth(Good Movie) and listened to music drove around and shyt got wendys went to drivers ed and shyt mom found out but no big deal ummm felt sick went to bed at 6:30 ish and shyt ummm more later comp apps class ahs started |
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[Sep. 6th, 2003|08:24 pm] |
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p.s.-dan tryed singing Swing Swing and trying to hit the high notes talk about funni lol we were all singing it after jay and dan played thier bass and geetar (dan=geetar and jay=bass) |
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| The Many Splendors of the night......... |
[Sep. 6th, 2003|06:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | simple and clean | ] |
AHHHHHHH The Many Splendors of the night:
So yest went GREAT....dyed grams hair while it set it ran home and changed and then came back finished up and got a ride to dans and then got there and chilled with dan and <3 Jay....jay skipped his scrimmage for football and chilled how cute hehe and like him and dan played bass for me and like then we went outside and sat and chilled and dan started playing badmitton with his bro tom and me and jay sat and talked and lol he randomely walked by and flicked my boob and then i tun around to see dan take off his pants and stand there playing badmitton with his boxers on lol and his bro hasd his shirt off i was laughing so bad then dan runs inside and puts on shorts lol and me and jay are chilling and then this kids car pulls it over and they run over (it was thier pal brian marlow) and check his sticker and flourescent light out and then he leaves and im standing there and dan had resumed his game of badmitton and then i feel something tackle me and its jay lol he ran up behind me and grabbed me and pulled me down lol he sucha qt and then we hung out some more and helped brian with his sticker and then sean pulled up and hes like dude you made it and im like i did and we all chilled and then me and jay hoped into seans car and dan in brians to get gas and then me and jay and sean split from them stopped at jays and drove around and went back and dans ex kelly was at the house and that girl sarah cormier thier actually not that bad kinda annoying but w.e me sean and kelly took a drive jay drove seans car (lol jay dont even have his permit) but like then we made sean do the mc hammer dance and then brian and dan got back and all the gurls went in his car and me jay and dan went in seans and we went to brains house and on the way friggen jay scarred the shyt outta me im sittin there and wer driving and i had shotgun and he puts his hand around the seat and grabs my boobs and im like omg... and then he kept on touching em (hell i wasnt gonna cxomplain its JAY !!!) lol then him and dan omg i was gonna kill him jay grabbed on boob and dan gave me a titty twister on the other im like ahhhhh......sean talked to jay i guess about hooking uo when i wasnt around hehe but like we get to brians and dan goes upstairs and goes im gonna grab a beer and gives me one and im like drinking it and jay goes gimme some and im like twasing im like mine and he oputs his hand around me and was standing like that drinking some and then we drove to my house and left those gurls at brians and jay still kept touchin my chest and we get to the house and dan and jay are like time for sex lol and we all went in and i showed em my room and sean was in the bathroom and i was on the phone asking mom for a longer cerfew cuz she was out and as im on the phone i was yelling at dan to stop looking at my lil kid pix and im walking over to stop him and jay grabs me by the hips and pulls me into him and was holding me man i was gonna die i was like yes lol but then when he loosend up i went to stop dan again and he pulled me foward and like pulled himself up against me and i was like oh man horniness but i got mom to lemme stay out till 10 it was 8 and then we went to the dunkin donuts and to the movies parking lot (i was in back with jay he touched my boobs sum more silly boy)
but like we chilled ther me and dan had carriage wars and crashed into each other lol then the gurls got thier and jay left : (
and me and sean and dan went to newbies i got boy cut undies with skulls and sock with pink stripes and skulls and a magnet that shows bush and says
Question: If you could be any tree what would you be?
and it says im not a tree im a bush lol
and a care bears one
then sean drove me home and i chilled and went to bed
worked all day now im talking to jay yay bye bye |
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[Sep. 5th, 2003|07:51 am] |
so yea this mornin when i got to school me and sean and jay and dan were gonna leave but in the end it was too complicated and too last minute so we didnt......... : (
But yea christine is sick today so after school it mayjust be me and dan and jay hehe jay jay is so hott lol but yea so right after school going to grams doing her hair then calling seans cell and we shall chill woohooo |
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[Sep. 4th, 2003|11:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | trapt-still frame....seether-fine again | ] |
Bad today-
-i feel like i have no best pal margo told me she has no time to hang out with me cause she has to "spend everymin with danny"
-I had to go home
-Broke to shyt no money at all till i pick up my check in the am
Good today-
-Seans gonna try n hook me n jay up
-sat and talked with jay all of lunch
-jay came up behind me in the halls when i wasnt looking and like grabbed my shoulder(not hard more like when a person starts a shoulder message)
-when school was over and i had auditions he went to gimme a low five and it was more like he walked by by and stuck out his hand and i went for it and we lt our hands slide across each others and kinda grabbed on at the end made me real happy
-auditions went GREAT
-met up with niki(nichole grearson) and she came and chilled at the house
-Avril caled and mom let me go out with her 7 to 830 we went to dunkin and cruised she had bud and we talked to sum pal of thiers and shyt man oh man at dunkin tabby was hella high
-talked to jay on the phone were hanging out with sean an christine 2marra after his scrimage and my dying of grams hair
so yea i want jay i rlly like him man oh man sean work ur luck lol |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2003|09:41 pm] |
today school...10 min.....drivers ed.....10min.......youth group(saw jesse lol it was wierd)
lol crayzeee uhh dan and kelley finally broke up so if i cant get jay im moving in there lol
uhhhh tommorow is G.I.V.E meeting and Audtions for "10 little indians" which mastrionnis letting us practice in theatre 2 so i got a head start im trying out for Vera the Sexaay vixen of a secretary lol
ummmmm singing practice bands starting up WooHooo for "MSV"
but im beat all i wanna do is talk to dan or jay lol and im talking to aisha shes cool but im out more later |
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